Too much thinking!

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"Be patience with all things. But, most importantly, be patience with your self."

That was what i got from the article. Quite simple, hard to do. I think i have patience enough with all things. But, not with myself. Is this what depression mean? Oh my, i whisper to myself, "hang on, myself. Hang on!" Just to finish this kind of life. Such an unpleasant but it's a must.

In other time, i faced my self in the mirror. I played my role. Yes, i just played. Like a good artist, i was playing good. Every different character i played, was going well. I'm pretty sure, people knows me as a brave,  and well organized. But simply, i just can not manage my emotion. I'm just twenty after all. My friends are twenty three. I'm two years younger than them. But people don't want to even know. Some of them precisely thought that i was lucky.

Well, I faced myself in the mirror and i tell her who i am. That's what i used to do when i thought my mask was going to break. In other article, i found that people who always do the other people want, they just forget about their selves. When i started walking my feet, i should know, it would not be a good path. So much obstacles. So much lies. Pretending to be good is not good.

In the end, i pretend to believe what people said, "i'm just lucky".

(i'm sorry to have you reading this stupid stuff. Thanks to you who read this until here. Usually, i'm not do this. May be someday, i'll delete this from my archive. I think, i just over think about everything.)

"See ya!"